.romance and cigarettes.

I love Kate Winslet…

The first time I watched this I thought it was melodramatic-I almost started to laugh but..it has definitely grown on me.

Under here, I am made ready
And under here, I am washed clean
And I glow with the greatness of my hate for you

Ute Lemper- Little Water Song (Mp3)

At night sometimes I just lay here and grind my teeth feeling this powerful intense surge of hateness. But I know it’s not hate — it is this mad feverish form of love disguised as hate. It’s much too angry and much too big to feel like gentle, innocent, soft vulnerable love. But that’s what it is, underneath it all…

“You know that when I hate you, it is because I love you to a point of passion that unhinges my soul.”

- Julie de Lespinasse

My teeth are going to shatter one of these days…