Meli playing some Neko songs in the office today made me nostalgic for her album – Middle Cyclone which I always liked (“This Tornado Loves You” was one of my picks for ’09) but haven’t really given it a proper listen. I fell asleep while listening, having the most vivid odd dreams – woke up, and played it back from the beginning again. Beautifully composed, strong intense voice, matched with equally powerful lyrics; I fell in love.
The Next Time You Say Forever (mp3)
I’ve lost my taste for home
And that’s a dirty, fallow feeling
To be the dangling ceiling
From when the roof came crashing down
Peeling in the heat
Vanish in the rain
The next time you say forever
I will punch you in your face
Just because you don’t believe it
Doesn’t mean I didn’t mean it
You never know when I’ll show you the never
It’s easy to become accustomed to someone, and their ways…to believe and trust that what they say they feel is truly how they feel. You ignore any/all actions that completely contradict what they tell you because they are your “home” – your love. Until one day – you are sick of trying to hold up the foundation yourself as it collapses all around you. You take a long hard look at the ruble, the mess, the chaos and decide there is no rebuilding that can be done. It isn’t home anymore, it isn’t safe, and sadly/unfortunately, “forever more” becomes “never again”.
You spoke the words,
“I love girls in white leather jackets”
That was good enough for love
It was good enough for me
I listened in
When you thought you were alone
Calling the sphinx
On a tornado’s phone
Who knows what you meant
I only heard what I wanted
You said I was your blue, blue baby
And you were right
Wandered the halls of the nighttime
My body burned
My legs ached
But you never came to bed
You just left me there awake
You kept me wanting, wanting, wanting
Like the wanting in the movies and the hymns
I want the pharaohs
But there’s only men
She stated this was about “imaginary boyfriends” – or making up the love you want while not receiving the love you need from someone. That person never living up to the ideal you have of them/ the love they can give you. I think it is easy to put the person you love on a pedestal…The bad thing about that is, they will always, no matter what fall off. To love truly – is to love completely …faults, imperfections and all.
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